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happy holidays people(:

im missing a bunch of people already.

boo.

thanks for accompanying me at home, B.
love you.

=D

PS: i'll make sure you try to make sure it's not 29 days.

holidays, update tomorrow. i'm so malas.

tomorrow's the last day of school. i'll miss school.

:( seriously.

and after school, i'm going to rush to kallang for a 45 mins - 1 hour test, kallang.

just for a test, imagine.

-.-

Course today was awesome(L)
cus there was a change of instructors, and a change of venue, and there was more outdoor activities this time round.

well, before that we went out of class at 12, and pipe and me and B and shafiq and imran and terry went together, but the guys went back halfway cos they wanted to go to their training so they alighted at commonwealth(i think) and went back to school.
Meanwhile, me and pipe was still deciding on where to alight.

Pipe(dengan semangat), said that she knew how to go to Kallang from City Hall, so we happily alighted at CityHall. waited for Vivian and Yiting but they ended up at DhobyGhaut, while me and pipe was walking at CityLink Mall(?), so we searched for the busstop.

Searching for the busstop was hell funny, we dashed through roads(which i've always been scared of), we searched for the bus stop, we laughed inside the bus, we found out it was a one-way road, we ran after vivian and yi ting, we ended up at DhobyGhaut too eventually, we called Vivian and YiTing like crazy, and my stomach hurts from laughing. really!

We ended up buying MacDonalds for lunch cus what we bought at school was seriously not enough. like, Hello Pandas for lunch?!
We didn't even have time to finish our meal, they only gave us 3 minutes.
Imagine me, stuffing a McChicken burger and Coke inside my mouth within 180 seconds.
I made it possible! ahaha, but i didn't finish my coke + both of our fries were stuffed inside pipe's bag. and in the end, it tasted like fries which has been stored in the fridge for 3 hours.
:( waste my approx $1.50.

and we had the proto-call(sp?) for being umpires, and we had another whistle, a rule book, and booklet.
and i really suck at blowing the whistle. mine sounded so.. wrong.
but nvm, i'm going to practice whistling with my whistle.
^^

so, after course i went home with pipe! woah seriously the mrt was so damn packed that i could hardly breathe, and i was leaning on pipe most of the time and there was this kid who suddenly danced in front of me, which was damn hilarious! nvm, i think the kid was being too hyper-active just now.

so anw, i think im done. and i have a rule book to study through. and i have a test waiting for me on friday.
so wish me luck!

bye lovelies.
:D

B, come down my house area or something.
like seriously. i miss eating oreo mcflurry with you.

course.

course was b.o.r.i.n.g.

it was draggy,and there was too many slides, and the lecturer was lame.

but pipe was being a good girl(see im praising you!), she entertained me throughout the whole thing. and we were laughing our ass off because of such trivial matters.

then, train-ed home with baby.

baby, bsk jumpe k? hohoho.

&im not going to cross, for goodness sake. so, stop worrying.

haha. love you.

^^

typical sunday.

woah cheeeebyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. hahaha, nabeelah where're you when i need you the most.

Friday.

ohyes, not to mention. Friday was the best day of the week.
we had self-training and only the sec 3s came, cos it was made compulsory for us.
I didn't regret a single minute of it. haha, with nabeelah shiqin yi ting vivian jean shi hwee ayu and jessie.

and baby waited for me. and before training, i ate mac which was sooooo not worth it. $5.
and i sat at the concourse with nabeelah shiqin syiqin and natasyiah singing like nobodys business. haha, fun!

we went off at 5.30 then to the usual bus stop. i was tired so i think i slept for 14 hours.
and the next thing i knew, every part of my body was aching.
:(

and i still had the cheek to ask Gatria out. haha.
duh, I miss going out with gatria and my sister.

ala, go read the post below. byeeeee.

feet hurts.

To JP yesterday afternoon with Gatria for some catching up and KFC.
We talked and ate KFC and walked around and drank bubble tea and ate kinder bueno and looked at flowers.
finally, 4 hours. hahaha.



then I trained down to Somerset. I was so confused by trains that I ended up going to the same place twice. tsk. and kakak wasn't helping cus she couldn't hear her phone ring, so I told baby.
I guess after texting him, I felt better, idk why. So, I made my way there.

I met Kakak at Heeren and we bought tickets to Night At The Museum 2(which was superb),
and the movie starts at 9.15 and it was only 6.30. So, we ended up at Subway. I ate cookies, and she ate Chicken Teriyaki. and we went around searching for my shorts, but nothing caught my eye.
We went home with one pathetic t-shirt. nvm, not our luck.

yeah. NATM2 was awesomeeee. hohoho.
Reached home at midnight and slept till mama woke me up for madrasah.

k, im dead tired and my feet hurts and i still have course tomorrow and match on tuesday and course for 3 days straight after that. But there's still pipe, so it's going to be just fine.
i'll entertain her, and she'll entertain me. hahaha.
eh btw, baby, miss you.

because it has been you all along, my dear.



Baby, it's because of you that i'm going to not give up, now.
cus you told me not to give up on love.

Iloveyou.

B, you said forever.

no more tomorrow.
today is enough.

in this game of life, i lost.

I keep chanting "its over its over its over..."

yeah, over.

today was beach day! hehe, i woke up feeling very groggy, cos i had a late night.
I slept at 12(is that even considered late?!), cus I was texting because I was sad because of a stupid reason.

yah, then Amir woke me up at 6. haha, then I smiled when I woke up, of course lah.
The first group of people that I get to meet at 8 in the morning would be those 3 girls of mine. hehe.
So, I was happy then I was late.
=/

We trained to HarbourFront and then to Sentosa.
We took crazy pictures, they swam, I sat, text people, listened to my mp3, cleared the sand from the mat. haha, it was fun and I enjoyed every minute of it. Everyone did.

We decided to go off cos Syafiah had to go Johor, so we went to eat epok-epok and drink Big Gulp near Coffee Bean first.

Then, we head off to Vivo for some more drinks at LJS. Then, we went home.

I thought of meeting Amir actually, but then it was cancelled so I went straight home.

Eh girls, I love you guys k. haha, let's go to the gym next! and grant Syafiah and Ayu's wish. hehehe. It's time I lost some weight too.
=/

more pictures: my multiply! under 'beach with girls'. haha, you should go look.

maaf.

I'm sorry I kinda played with your heart. I didn't want that to happen, but it did. I'm sorry I gave you hopes because I didn't want everything to end back then, cus everything was perfect.
Then, things stumble down and everything was ruined just because of a single mistake we made. I cried in your arms, you told me it was okay. and I appreciate everything that you said.
So let's end it, right here right now. Because I'm not going to hurt you and that's final.

Say whatever you want, say I'm a hypocrite, say I'm naive, say that I don't care.
I am not a hypocrite neither do I not care but i admit that i was a naive girl and as much as I am very irritated by you saying that, I don't want to hurt you further.

Sheesh, k i've had enough and I don't want to be sad over this matter because my girls are very much helping and understanding towards my whole situation and I thank them for that.
and also, they've grant me my wish of going to the beach after so long and Syafiah&Ayu had to give up their intention of going to the gym just because of me&Lydia. Sorry k, I promise I'll make it up to you two next time k. heh.

and I'm so sorry to Gatria for not being there for her and for dissapearing into thin air just like that.
I'm so sorry for being busy all the time and really, before you go back to Indonesia, you must meet me and we must talk about everything with oreo mcflurry in our hands k! Imy lah girl.

what next?
today i went to jp last minute(i actually wanted to go home),
then I reconsidered so I went to JP with Syafiah and Ayu cos Lydia had to go off first.
We ate at MacDonalds and we had to put in 5 packets of sugar to make the tea sweet. tsk.
We went to look at watches, and walked through the entire shopping mall like.. 4 times,
then Syafiah bought a watch, and we settled at Burger King and waited for Lydia.
Lydia came then she ate at LJS, then we talked about tomorrow's trip,
and then we went home.

oh yes, have i mentioned that i miss you lately?
no doubt that you have caused a lot of destruction in my life, but.. oh nevermind.
I know that having you back in my life would cause me 1 litre of tears again.
so it's okay.
(:

so beach tomorrow, spiderman mat, epok-epok, popiah, pictures, waves, syafiah, ayu, lydia, me.
nice. eh girls, did i mention that i love you guys very much?
hahaha, oh yes I do. k, i sound like a lesbo but so what?!

(edited)
thanks zul, for everything. you're very sweet. hahaha. and don't be sad seeing me sad.(:let's eat famous amos and kinder buenos k! and thank you for being patient with me because i'm always complaining 24/7 either in text messages, or in msn. and yes zul, flowers make me happy.

14th monthsary.
hahaha, so sorry k I left you at the busstop. I seriously didn't know.
=/


omgomgomg, just 1 more paper to go! another 1 hour 15 mins to go and i'm done.
and then beachhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
eh syafiah&ayu, no gym please.
):

I felt like a poor girl today cus i've got no money with me except for $1.60.
i'll ask mama/papa for money later.
^^
but friends make me happy.

my mama.

Happy Mothers Day mama!

Please stay at home more so you can accompany your dear girl here at home and not call me 3-4 times at 11 o'clock just to check if I'm okay.

I love you, mom.

:D

I am a happy girl because my kakak is finally talking to me after a month or so.

and my mama and papa is finally talking to each other.

and my brother is finally home most of the time, so I can see his face before he go.

Really, I am a happy girl. because all that matters is family and friends and amir now.

:D

Just now after madrasah, Izzah Allisa Syimah and I had a little chat.

and I really hope we would go out during the holidays k, you girls? haha i miss you guys a lot leh.

tsk. plus Nazurah, of course.

and this coming Friday is marking day, and I hope the outing to the beach with the 3 girls is really gonna happen. I miss sentosa, and i miss you girls.

k done, studying next in the list.

LIBRARY WITH.. (who else)

Last Friday, Last Saturday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. i went out.

As easy as that.

Going out tomorrow to mug, haha hope so.

syafiah turned 15, on tuesday.

happy birthday girl, hope you like what Lydia&I gave you.

^^

sometimes i feel like ripping your heart/brain out to actually know how you feel.

are you that hurt or am i just thinking too much?

or maybe you won't look me in the eyes or maybe you're just plain ignorant?

omg, i miss blogging i miss my mama i miss my papa i miss my laptop i miss my sister i miss sentosa i miss receiving flowers i miss having suprise calls at 12 in the morning i miss going out with my 3 girls i miss mcflurry mudpie i miss my family outings i miss dinner together with my family i miss having someone to talk to at home i miss sharing the bed with kakak i miss pipe i miss.. everything.

gosh it can make me cry, but i wont! haha, cos life at school has been

this great.

abg, if you have to go.
please come back on my birthday.

and daddy, i hardly see you at home nowadays.
):

home is supposed to be like heaven.

B.

*shows sad face*

i am so proud of myself.

i actually studied today.

can you believe?